I feel like I’m always working my hardest at practice but its just not good enough and then I always end up putting myself down when I know that’s not the right thing to do because I know I’m better than that. Idk I just really need to learn how to stop putting myself down so much because its not helping what so ever and because when I’m in that mind set that my hard work isn’t paying off I don’t feel motivated at all and I’m just wasting my time. It just sucks to know that you’ve worked ur ass off and in the end you still feel like shit!

But its time to change that. I need to not let it get me so much and just focus on me and not care about anyone else. Its going to be tough but I can do it. Its just going to take some time!